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Chasing Three Rabbits – author update

I’m a clear example of the evidence to show why we need to focus. In recent months I have mentioned several books that I am working on. The three that edge to the top of the list (there are 20 ideas in total!) are:

  • alice reimagined – a book of poems, prose pieces, biographical sketches and photos.
  • The Journey to Wonder – the influences that have affected how I think and what I do
  • Coaching themes – a book with 20 titles, yet to choose the right one. And yes, it’s about my coaching practise and some of the key themes.

These are all really pulling at me to get on and finish them. But like a dog chasing three rabbits across the field, I’m never going to catch any of them if I keep shifting my focus from one to the next. It’s great to have a choice – but at the end of the day I need to absorb my thinking into one thing at a time and just press on with it.

There is also nothing like a deadline to create momentum.

I have made good progress on all three books. The book about “alice” has a structure worked out, and is probably one fifth written – I keep having new ideas for this book and it is an evolving structure. “The Journey to Wonder” is nearly 18,000 words and approximately half written. Bite size chunks are waiting to be completed. The coaching book is 2,600 words with an overall structure sorted and an illustrator has agreed to work on it with me (thank you Kate!)

But! You can’t write three books at once – it’s a multi-tasking impossibility that demonstrates why I need to take each and progress it.

Why have I got myself into this situation? Probably a mixture of avoiding boredom and distraction techniques. It works sometimes to have different things to work on depending on my mood. I just need to balance that with a specific need to be really clear which book I am working on when I sit down to write and not create ambiguity which might lead me not to write at all.

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alice reimagined

Back in 2004 I wrote a booklet of poems called “the alice conversations“. 13 poems in a short booklet, it was a set of dialogues and conversations with Alice. When I first began working with Carl Jung’s theories of archetypes and active imagination, I developed a set of characters that would reappear frequently in my written work. The character of Alice was my anima, the inner feminine within the man. She appears in a lot of my written work. Other characters include Peter, Lou Meera and Aslan (yes, I know that name has been used before!)

The set of poems that I wrote back in 2004 were fun to write, had plenty of insight into the personality of this character, and were produced at a time when I was looking to make sense of archetypes and find ways to work with them.

A few weeks ago, I was looking through this booklet again. That prompted a new idea – to take each poem of the original 13 and use that as source material for a new section with 5 or so poems. I’m aiming for a complete manuscript of up to 100 poems.

Each poem in the original sequence is the beginning place for the reimagination…

I am aiming to get into the mode and mind of Alice – take a poem, break it up. Print it out and cut it up – look for narratives and threads that are there but not used in the original.

Use the conversation idea in much more depth! Dialogues – exploring the original material and adding in a lot of new material.

alice reimagined 2017

I will write in many different styles – Ferlinghetti, Eliot, Auden, Hughes, Heaney. I am going to draw on other approaches too. This will be an opportunity to stretch and expand my techniques. Sometimes we just become somewhat stuck in a rut of writing. The other collection I am working on at the moment “Hang Fire” has become stuck – diving into “alice reimagined” is my way of unblocking, creating a free space to write and open out the creative approach.

What about visuals? I have been looking for 13 black and white photos from the many pictures I have taken in the last few months, to place these at the beginning of each section. I have 6 already – photos that evoke the mood that I am aiming for in the poems. More posts will appear here as the book develops.


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Experimental III – adventures in publishing

I want to write about experiments in poetry and poetic form. This isn’t going to be a comprehensive history of experimentation in poetic form. That would be a very long blog post, maybe a book – and not one that I want to write (just yet anyway!)

Instead, this is a personal story about being inspired by the experimental in poetry. I have written before about City Lights Books – and my experience of reading Frank O’Hara’s “Lunch Poems” (yes he did write them on his lunch breaks from working at the Museum of Modern Art in New York) whilst studying my degree. I found his style of writing hugely inspiring. Each poem looked effortless, conversational – and yet, clearly there was more art and craft behind his work than at first appeared. My favourite poem from this collection is called “The Day Lady Died” and is about the death of Billie Holiday. The poem begins with this:

It is 12:20 in New York a Friday
three days after Bastille day, yes
it is 1959 and I go get a shoeshine.

And ends breathtakingly with this:

she whispered a song along the keyboard
…and everyone and I stopped breathing.

Other work by more experimental poets that I found inspiring would include ee cummings, a poet whose work was a huge influence on my early writings. His voice probably echoes in mine as I played with his particular approach to word play and experimentation with type-written words. I also loved the work of John Cage, known more as a composer for works like those I mentioned in the earlier blog post in this series. His writings are fascinating too.

My own experiments in publishing poetry began in the mid 1980s when I was working as a Community Artist. At the time, I was working with groups of adults. This was pre-computer days. Having spent about 10 years trying to find my own voice through experimenting with the styles of poets who I admired, I wrote the first sequence that felt like my own voice was coming through. It was a turning point – 1984 and “sharp blue / breath” appeared. Over the years that followed, I threw away most of the poetry I had written up to that point. It felt immature, practise for what was to come. Once this collection was written I set about turning it into a booklet. The cover was a lino-print with letraset words (remember those sticky letters!)  and the inside was hand written. It was bound with cotton. There was only one copy made – you can see from the photo that I still have it.

Much later, in the late 90s I started buying poetry books and booklets from Peter Riley who was selling new and secondhand books from Cambridge via a mailing list. I came across some wonderful books which were published by Randolph Healey from Wicklow in Ireland. Wild Honey Press is on hold at the moment. The website is still there – Randolph has produced a beautiful collection of booklets. I bought a handful which contained some terrific experimental verse presented in hand-printed booklets which were bound with wool. Wonderful things to own!

My own experiments continued in 2003 when I launched the first iteration of BlueWater Books with two collections of poetry called “zen words” and “Umbrian Images”. These collections were hand-printed booklets produced on an old Canon printer with plain paper inserts and textured paper covers. I spent many happy hours trawling through paper and stationery supply shops looking for papers to use for these booklets. And that was followed by many frustrating hours battling with the printer to get the layout right, avoid paper being chewed up and find seemingly endless supplies of patience to produce 50 copies of each booklet. Was it successful? Depends what you call success – I still have copies left (looking for a good home, if you are interested!) Those that did find readers were well received.

Fast forward more than a decade to 2016 and I decided to re-activate BlueWater Books, this time with the help of the Editor whose name was given to the press, Alice Bluewater. The first book to launch was “It Begins Like This” and the second one came out last month – “Blue: experiments in sound”.

In some ways it is so much easier to publish books these days. Thanks to print on demand and online design anything is possible at minimal cost. The days of authors looking at the ceiling nervously, aware that there are a thousand copies of their book in boxes in the attic – are long gone! But there are still challenges – finding readers, working out how to format and set a book so that the published copy looks the way you want it to. All of this is do-able! A set of new skills to learn or tasks to find someone else to do. The end result is an experiment that has been well worth the patience. Enjoyable? Definitely!



Whilst you are here: have you seen my two books released this year?

Values Count is available from Amazon or directly from my website. It’s a book about values based approaches to work. Essential for anyone who wants to work with a strong sense of purpose.

Blue: Experiments in Sound is my latest collection of poetry with illustrations, the latest stories about Blue, the misanthropic 21st century man in search of a meaning. It is available in a limited edition from my website.


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Sparks of Metal Hammer

A couple of weeks ago I published my second book of the year. It is called “Blue: Experiments in Sound”.

The first book, “Values Count“, is a non-fiction book about values based working. It is available on this website as well as through Amazon. Sales in the first few months have been steady – it has been fun to learn how to market a book and attract sales. I’ve also had some really positive feedback and reviews, including this:

“This is a very readable and practical book, which has been crafted in the workplace and not from a vantage point far removed. Use of words like inclusivity and humility would never feature on the Apprentice, and that in itself is a good enough reason to read this book…if you think the world needs fewer people chasing pounds and treading on heads to do it, and more people applying values in the work they do, then this book is for you.”

A lovely review from Tom Bell (thanks Tom!)

This new book, a collection of poetry, has been illustrated by Phillip Kingsbury. Thanks to Phillip’s work, the book looks and feels absolutely beautiful. I thought you might like to read a poem from the collection:

Sparks of Metal Hammer

“Diving for pearls”, he said,
“will be the death of me!”
and he chuckled into his beard, old coyote
the bane of the village, bitterly sweet

When there used to be a blacksmith here
you could see the sparks from the metal hammer
iron hot and pliable, steam heating the winter air
open overcoat just keeping the wind out

He didn’t mean literal pearls, of course –
since the curse from that crossroads deal
he had looked for every treasure he could find
mostly in the souls of the travellers

He would take them with him,
ride on horse back until the sky was filled with stars
then let them on their way
he had caught all he needed, their stories of pain.

If you are interested in buying a copy of this book you can order it here.

I’m working through a brilliant online webinar series at the moment. I came across this quote in it:

“All growth exists on the other side of fear”

The process of learning how to publish, sell and market a book is a big learning curve. I’m learning all about it and will post in the next few weeks about my reflections on the journey. It’s been a huge learning – loads to understand and plenty of mistakes to make along the way(!)

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Working Out Loud #352

fullsizeoutput_11ccSome more working out loud. A marvellous concept that I read about in-depth in the book “Working Out Loud” by John Stepper.

This creative journey. An opening out of ideas – and the lack of focus that emerges. Thus, all of these projects underway, open loops:

  • Working on at least 6 non-fiction pieces
  • Working on 2 new poetry collections
  • The second novel, about half written and left for at least 4 years.
  • Developing ideas for a collection of ambient pieces of music
  • Early ideas for the second album of spoken word and music
  • Various blog themes including “People who inspire me” and “Intuition over Logic”
  • A 365 day photo exercise with the team in work

So many creative projects – in a way  I love the diversity of it all. But in the middle of it all, sometimes time devoted to just one project until it is finished is important to build confidence and resilience.

Without a mix of focus and opening out of ideas, nothing gets done. And amongst all of this I am reminded by a voice from my past that not everything has to be finished. Some projects are there to be abandoned, tidied up and closed down, or turned into something else.

In that list above there are at least 14 live projects, and that isn’t everything I am working on at the moment. Working out Loud. Sharing as I go.

Without an audience, without communicating there is no point.

“#352”? What do I mean? Well, I guess a lot of my blog posts are in the guise of working out loud. That is what blogging means to me. So, this is probably at least the 352nd post where I am working out loud.

(November Challenge 15/31)

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kingfisher’s turn

ItBeginsLikeThisA poem from the collection “It Begins Like This” (2014)




I remember that tree, struck by lightning before I climbed it.
The absolute shock of the bark, bitten by electricity
And the beat of wing as it caught the night air along the river bank,
Nocturnal bird seeking partner as the seasons fall.

But those memories don’t take away the emptiness of the truth,
That death will take us all, will shape us into insignificance
And remind us that we are just one
Micro-dot in the millions of years of existence.

(November Challenge 12/31)

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What’s he Building in there #3

buildingA few years ago on this blog I wrote a post called “What’s he building in there?” It came after a long break when I had written nothing. The title was taken from a song by Tom Waits. In it, Waits describes someone who is in his barn building something. The neighbours can hear the noises, nobody sees him to talk to. Everybody’s imagination runs riot with ideas as to what he is doing and their prejudices get the better of them. It’s a great song – worth a listen!

Well, I have been a bit quiet lately. Partly this is because the day job has been incredibly busy with a number of key projects coming to fruition. Also, I’ve been buried deep in creative mode and editing and publishing mode. I thought it might be useful to update on some of these projects.

Values Count – I have a manuscript ready to go about values based working. I’ve been preparing a self-published version of this book whilst also exploring another edition as part of a wider venture. The book is nearly there – just a  few tweaks to the cover and inside and it will be done. It will be of interest to coaches, people who are working on organisational development, and anyone who thinks that ethics and underpinning values are really important to the way that they work.Details will be available here on the website and I will send an email out to those who are on my subscribers list.

Blue: experiments in sound – there’s already an album worth of sound files on bandcamp which I shared some months ago. The book itself is with an artist who is working with me on designing it. Phillip Kingsbury is preparing some beautiful watercolours to complement the poems. I’m hoping this will be ready before the end of the year. I’m working up some plans for a print run of the book, and a limited edition of the book together with the CD and a postcard series of earlier linked poems.

It Begins Like This – my poetry collection from last year is still available on this site as a PDF download. A paperback edition is in the final stages of editing.

I’m also working on new ideas for book manuscripts, including a book on the application of Archetypes in the workplace, and a book on coaching approaches. Both of these books are well advanced. And the new collection of poems, “Hang Fire“, many of which are on a political theme, is underway. I have written about a third of that.

So …. that’s what I have been building over the last few months…

Drop me an email if you want to know more, or post a comment.

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A Paper Thread

There’s a paper thread, a trail, a trace
that leads all the way back to the government

We wondered why we had not been called upon
felt slightly queasy, a little on edge

Then realised that it was all up for grabs –
specious, she said, a waste of voice

And there were protestors too, thousands and thousands
making their voices heard in the frozen city air

Nowhere to be seen in the newspapers, they were busy
photographing the heir to the throne sitting on a chair

We get the media we deserve, so the wealthy owners tell us
and the misgivings of governments are washed away by distraction

Nothing to see here, pass along now, look at that bright shiny story
and as if we were goldfish, we swim off, mouths open in disbelief.

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Update: apparently you are never too old to release your first album

On Friday I publicised the release of an album through Bandcamp. It comprised 15 tracks, using spoken word and music. The words come from “Blue: experiments in sound” which is the fourth poetry sequence about a misanthropic, lone-wolf character called Blue. I will be releasing this as a book in the next few months. In the meantime, last week saw the album in digital form.

I was really surprised by the reaction through social media over the weekend. There was plenty of attention, 115 listens on Bandcamp already – which is probably 100 more than I thought there would be, and some really lovely emails from people who enjoyed what they heard.

So, it’s probably never too late to try something out!

The challenge isn’t learning how to do things, or coming up with ideas, it’s overcoming that inner critic that chunners away in the background telling us that what we have done isn’t worth sharing! That’s why it has taken me since last summer to press the publish button and get this material up online.

Was it worth it? Yes, the objective has been met – something shared with the world (or a little piece of the world), and sharing things creates the space to move on to the next project.

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Am I too old to release my first album?

IMG_0531A really short blog post today just to answer the question.

I hope I am not too old, as Wednesday was the day when I released my first full length album through bandcamp. It’s a part of the Blue project which I have written about here before. If you are interested to learn more, you can read this.

The album can be found here.

And coming soon will be the physical version – in other words, a CD (remember them).

It’s never too late to realise a dream. And now I have done that – it’s time to start work on the difficult second album….